urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alesana92 alesana92 alesana92 2007-12-11T02:37:28Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alesana92:826 2007-12-11T02:37:28Z 2007-12-11T02:37:28Z parkway drive <font size="5" face="Verdana"><font size="2"> I can honestly say <br /> That I never, ever, ever felt this way <br /> Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin <br /> These are the parts of your body <br /> That cause my comatose to begin <br /><br />&nbsp;Spill Canvis-All hail the heartbreaker <br /><br />Have you ever felt that way about a girl. Her lips and everything about her makes you go crazy. You know what you want but somehow its so off and you know you can never have it. Why is that when you want something so badly it hurts so much to know you cant have it. I know what i want and i know what i need. I almost feel as if i'm just Romeo without his Juliet. Everytime I see her it makes me go nuts a i know what i want and know what i need but everytime i see her shes holding on to someone else. Its almost to the point now that it hurts knowing i cant have what my heart desires. I always put others feelings in front of myself i guess the saying is true nice guys do finish last. Ehh w.e its such a feeling im so used to already who cares anymore. My day pretty much sucked people suck my school sucks. People in my school make me said because there so ignorant. Just because a guy wears tight pants in my school automatically means hes gay. Ughh the ignorance in my school could make most people go mad. Ive had some tough times maybe my life isnt as bad as i make it seem most times but for me its hard to deal. Im not comfortable with who i am or what i look like i hate how i think i hate myself to death. If i could change one thing it would be for me to dissapear because either way no one is going to notice much. Why am i so alone why am i so uncomfortable with me these are questions im not sure ill ever be able to answer. All i have for now is my close friends to keep me sane and for that they mean the world to me and i could'nt ask for better ones <br /><br /> </font></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alesana92:517 2007-11-28T03:59:56Z 2007-11-28T03:59:56Z this is my first entry ever i guess its kind of cool. Have you ever had one of those days where you felt so lost and that you don't belong anywhere and that you don't fit in. Everywhere you turn you see kids smiling and laughing and your sitting there asking yourself what is keeping me back from doing that. Have you ever just wanted to be noticed someone new to come up and say hi how are you just so you know that your not completely Invisible because thats definitely how i feel. Some knows im there but meanwhile i feel like nothing more then a wall flower. Well im pretty tired so im gonna bounce for the night &nbsp; <br />&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Jeff